So I pretty much have been wanting to read latley but cant afford the new harry potter book so what do i do. I read this entire LJ. I am not saying I am awesome or any thing. but i really miss the good old days. Lindsay Wallin. Bowling. thrifting. wrestling. strawberry malts. So I am going to do my best to get this current melissa to do old things, but that might just make me super depressed because ill realize I am old.
My bday is 9/9 and i want to have a sweet party. but i think I might go to my home town instead.
I have been seeing a boy and I am not too sure how I feel about it.
For one I just dont know if I am ready to be serious, but i love his company and he makes me laugh. but who doesnt? I just dont know what to think about it all. I have an idea of some things i want out of a relationship and they are all compleatley pointless things. Its not even reasonable or responsible or serious things. Like most girls my age want a guy with money or a job and a nice car and what not. And maybe i should be looing for something that will be like that but lets face it thats just not my style.
I mean the people who i cared about the most were unemployed, had no car, no money, smoked pot, bla bla, but they didnt bore me. I need people in my life who will drag me out of my house and make me have good time. I mean im not all about being home i just never know what to do.
Im pretty sure this is my midlife crisis and im loving it.
Seriously I know what I want because i have had a mix of it before, but im not sure what i want is even a realistic option.
i might get some tats soon, because what better than getting something permanate when your mind is racing and you cant make up your mind and dont know what you want from life